Lord I give up!

I am not going to try to fight this battle alone. I cannot do it! But you oh Lord can not only fight this battle, you will win it. You will do what is in the best interests of each of the parties that are involved. I will no longer try to fix things on my own but I will try to remember to take all of the little broken pieces to you to put back together in your time and how you choose. Not only the broken pieces of our lives but the broken pieces of my heart over this. In my pride and arrogance I thought I could help the ones I am worried over but it is not my place but yours to do that. Just for today let me rest in the shadow of your wings and find comfort close to your heart. Just today let me rest knowing all is going to be okay. Tomorrow I know I will need to pray this prayer again to you. But just today I am asking for these things because I know you will give them to me. Thank you Lord.

Daily musings

I have not much to post. I have been trying to deal with the heat and the busy part of summer. I noticed my garden is slowing down but not stopping. The green beans have began the second round of blossoms.I am glad I did not pull them up when they looked so scraggly. I probably need to give them a light fertilizing.Then plenty of water. I had a disaster with my sweet pickles. I tried to use a pressure canner on a couple small batches because I was reusing a 2 quart pickle jar. Well the jar I opened had soft pickles. Not bad just overcooked. So lesson learned. Too high of a processing temperature is not good. I am thankful I have many more jars to eat besides those. I just hate that I wasted two weeks and so much sugar.

My dad became deathly ill. I did not find out until days later. It seems that my family did not have the new number. I must have missed giving it to them. He almost died and still has a long way to go to get where he can get around again. I sure hope we can get him back into his home. It is almost impossible to find a decent rest home that takes Medicare and military insurance. I hate the way our government treats our elderly. Those who have helped make our nation great are treated with no respect.I am thankful my big brother is up there to care for him.

I worked in the garden pulling up spent corn stalks today. Hard work but it needed done. I really want to plant a fall garden of collard greens, maybe some beets and a couple other things. Not as large as the spring/summer one but a little more to help fill the pantry.I just have to wait for the stalks to dry and we will have a burn for them. I am so ready for fall and all of the cooler weather.I do not handle heat well anymore.

That is all worth mentioning right now. One last thought. Our former church sanctuary that burned is down and the lot is cleared. So we can move forward to looking and planning a new building. Our current pastor resigned and is moving back to his home state of Tennessee. I wish him and his family great success and happy times. I will miss them fiercely.He may not be my pastor anymore but he will always be my friend and brother in Christ. I hope you will pray with me for the Lord to bring us a pastor who will not be afraid to tell it like it is and to step on toes if he needs to in love. I pray for one who will reach the hearts with God's help of the stony hearted ones who seemed to have run the last pastor off. I will not go into details because I know not all of them.It might be biased.

May God bless you and keep you. Diana

Finally some rain.

We finally got some much needed rain here in NC. It has been so hot and dry lately. The garden looks better today. My beans are slowing down but they have blooms on them on the bottom so they are resting for a bit. I do not want to be hasty in pulling them up.

We had a white dove hanging around the house yesterday. A magnificent creature, large and snowy white. It reminded me so much of the depiction of the Holy Spirit as it alighted in the form of a dove on Jesus after his baptism. It did not seem to be afraid of me. I could not touch it but it would get within six feet and just look at me and listen to me.

We have so much that needs finishing around here. We seem to get projects started and they either have to be redone or postponed until time or finances make it possible to take them back up. Case in point, the picket fence in the front yard. I had it painted white but the paint kept coming off and turning green with mossy growth. So we started to change the color to a lovely green called Tarragon. I got one side painted by hand and it seems to be holding well. It is a premium paint with the primer and anti mold and algae treatment in it. We have another gallon here now and it has just been too hot to get to it. That and the garden going full time.

We plan on staying home this fourth break. My husband has five days off and #1 we do not have the money to go anywhere. #2 we need to catch up on a few projects, and #3 I do not like to go far from home for long periods. We will be hosting (I hope) a family pot luck cookout. We have 17 coming that I know of.

We found out our big boat will need to go into the shop for the tune of about 500 dollars for some repair work. All because we do not have time to take it out and run it enough. The gas has gummed the carbs up on it. That was not what I wanted to hear. It will have to wait. We have a smaller boat we use most of the time anyway.Now he knows he has to crank it every two weeks at least even if it has fuel preservative in it.

Our church burned down a little over two weeks ago. They are starting to take down the ruins slowly. I hope they can salvage more pews. Plus we are trying to salvage the stained glass windows. I am thankful we still have the family life center to hold church in.

Next time I will post some more about me. I will share with you who makes me what I am today. Many years ago I was lonely and sad until I met a man. His name is Jesus. He loved me when I did not love myself. He showed me that I could be happy and sure that I would go to heaven. He paid my way through His shed blood on Calvary. He paid the sin debt that hung on my head that I could not pay. He cleaned up my heart and gave me a peace that you just cannot understand until you accept Him as your personal savior. Yes Savior. He saved me from an eternity of hell. He walks with me each day and helps me when I fall. I am far from perfect. I still struggle with sin and I know when I confess them, he will forgive them. We all have sinned and fallen short of what it takes to get to heaven. Nothing can get into heaven with sin on it. So Jesus paid it for all who will accept it and believe in Him. He is my rock of salvation. I fear nothing when I know He is with me.

I hope all have a blessed day today. If you are struggling with fears and do not know if you were to die today whether or not you will go to heaven, call on Jesus and ask Him to forgive the sin on your life that we were all born under. Then ask Him to be your personal savior. Your life will never be the same again. I know, mine has not.

New Blog

Just letting you know I have created a new blog. Stay tuned for future posts. Diana